Well the holiday is over already. Istanbul was great, hot all the time, lots of good things to see, plenty of sea and water, wonderful smells, busy streets and markets, all the usual things that dont have to be said as most people are ware what a vibrant, lively cultural city it is.
Caroline joined me for a few days and as always was wonderful company and the days have flown by. I saw her off at the airport this evening and found it quite emotional as I have no idea when I will see her again, if ever. Well I said at the start of this blog that I would also mention my emotions and as yet I have hardly done so as I have been on an even keel, but that has now changed. I now feel emotionally drained and to be honest the road ahead fills me with dread. I said to Caroline that I too would love to be coming home and that I have lost the desire to continue, but I dont feel that would be the right thing to do and this journey was never going to be easy and I cant give up when I confront the first real challenge. So tomorrow I have to get up and head out of Istanbul, another journey that fills me with dread, but it has to be done. I know I will have no desire to be moving in the direction I am going and the traffic of nightmares will only go to make it worse. I am sure the next fews days will just be a blur as my mind will be else where, hardly noticing my surrounding, but as the saying goes, time is a great healer, and hopefully as time goes by things will settle down again and I will start to enjoy life again. Last Thursday was a high, I had arrived in Istanbul ahead of a weeks rest, yet just one week later I am very low, lower than I had expected to be, but in some respect these are the challenges, not the cycling itself. I need to be strong and over the coming days I am sure I will learn something about myself.
Well that hardly singing great praises after spending a week in a wonderful city, but I really didnt want to come in here and write this tonight, but I only did it to take my mind of other matters and catch my feelings as they are now. Its short and no so sweet but its all I feel up to at the moment.
As promised a couple of photos of me, I spoil you!